Run away to the humanities!!!

I would like to apologize to the few loyal followers that I have for not updating sooner. I have been going through a little turbulence in my first semester of college. It will result in a few changes to my blog.

I am changing majors. I am running away from Biology and switching to an English/Philosophy double major with a minor in Biology, and possibly a minor in Psychology too.

I really should have seen this coming. Even when I was reading all of the science books that I read last summer and contemplating what a truly awesome person I was, and what an amazing scientist I was going to be, I had my doubts.

Whenever I told people that I was going to major in Biology, I would follow it with "But, maybe I will run away to the humanities. LOL!!!" I guess my subconscious understands me. I mean, it has to. It has lived with me, my craziness, my over-enthusiasm, and my near-constant panic for my whole life. It knew ALL ALONG, and it did try to warn me, but I was too caught up in the technocratic pressure of society, and the empowerment of being a MODERN woman in the sciences.

I would do fine in Biology. I understand the information and I am proficient at the labs and the technology. I just do not want to do it. It does not come easily to me. I have to work like a chipmunk who downed a double-shot espresso in order to get the technological aspects of the science and the lab into my head.

On the other hand, English has always been the one subject that never concerned me. I read quickly and at a high level of comprehension. I may use incorrect grammar and made-up words in this blog, but in the real world I am pretty awesome at grown-up writing. For goodness sakes! What was I thinking? I guess I was intent on being MODERN Helen.

I began to realize that my philosophy and honors courses were of greater interest to me than anything else. They were fun and I got to TALK. I really really like to talk. I love the sciences, but I am more interested in the implications of the sciences for humans (hence the double major in English and Philosophy and the science minors). I want to learn about ethics and come up with my own ideas about how to live in a world full of science and technology while still keeping a sense of human worth.

I am going to get this double-major, go on to get a PhD,  and then get to live in college forever as a professor. I shall teach awesomeness, and I will get to read, and write and talk ALL THE TIME. It will be magical, and I will be happy (mostly) and I will not have to use computers for crazy statistical analysis ever again.

HOORAY!!!

ModernHelen